I really hate my job. I don't like the work so much just because I'm not learning anything new. I thought it would be cool to know everything about my job, exactly how to do it and what to do, etc. But it isn't. It's really boring. I'm not learning anything new and it's not so cool.
Past that, though I've added tremendous value to my business unit my boss still doesn't value me as a person. She tells me in no uncertain non-verbal terms that I am not valued. I so want to get up and just quit. But I can not and will not right now. There are two reasons for this.
First, because there are no new challenges, though I could very well get into another position I'm not sure that I would be paid as well right now, so the first is monetary.
Second, I'm not in a position where right now I could move career wise into the position that I would like to move into. I want to move into being an iOS Developer next. But right now I don't have an app in the iPhone store and so therefore I can not go into an interview and say, yes I have an app. Yes I developed a couple websites. Yes, I am awesome. Please give me my 200K and my contract, thank you very much.
Now I understand something that I heard about Carlos Ghosn, the current CEO of Nissan. The narrator of Revenge of the Electric Car said he was a desperately disciplined, desperately smart man. (One of my favorite quotes is, "Carlos Ghosn doesn't get up in the morning unless there's money in it.")
In order to make it in business you have to be desperately disciplined. You have to subvert, submerge, and even smother your emotions in order to do well. At every sneer, at every slight, though my pride is offended and I am annoyed even at some points incensed I must put my tongue on a leash, control my facial expressions, smile, laugh, and quietly seethe, biding my time.
Part of being wealthy is a war of attrition. This is a war of attrition and self discipline. Who ever is standing at the end wins. I am getting too emotional. Dial it back.
What I must do is build my app. Then put out a resume. Then build my website. Then put out a resume. Then build another app. Then put out a resume. By the end of the year I should have two websites up and two apps out there and one of my websites should be monetized. That should be more than enough to get a new job. It should be more than enough to launch my third company and to get VC funded.
Do I want to be as successful as Carlos Ghosn? Desperately. Dare I say even more so. Then I must be more disciplined. My emotionally constrained. Stronger. Until I can strike and win.
A battle is won or lost before it is ever fought.
Past that, though I've added tremendous value to my business unit my boss still doesn't value me as a person. She tells me in no uncertain non-verbal terms that I am not valued. I so want to get up and just quit. But I can not and will not right now. There are two reasons for this.
First, because there are no new challenges, though I could very well get into another position I'm not sure that I would be paid as well right now, so the first is monetary.
Second, I'm not in a position where right now I could move career wise into the position that I would like to move into. I want to move into being an iOS Developer next. But right now I don't have an app in the iPhone store and so therefore I can not go into an interview and say, yes I have an app. Yes I developed a couple websites. Yes, I am awesome. Please give me my 200K and my contract, thank you very much.
Now I understand something that I heard about Carlos Ghosn, the current CEO of Nissan. The narrator of Revenge of the Electric Car said he was a desperately disciplined, desperately smart man. (One of my favorite quotes is, "Carlos Ghosn doesn't get up in the morning unless there's money in it.")
In order to make it in business you have to be desperately disciplined. You have to subvert, submerge, and even smother your emotions in order to do well. At every sneer, at every slight, though my pride is offended and I am annoyed even at some points incensed I must put my tongue on a leash, control my facial expressions, smile, laugh, and quietly seethe, biding my time.
Part of being wealthy is a war of attrition. This is a war of attrition and self discipline. Who ever is standing at the end wins. I am getting too emotional. Dial it back.
What I must do is build my app. Then put out a resume. Then build my website. Then put out a resume. Then build another app. Then put out a resume. By the end of the year I should have two websites up and two apps out there and one of my websites should be monetized. That should be more than enough to get a new job. It should be more than enough to launch my third company and to get VC funded.
Do I want to be as successful as Carlos Ghosn? Desperately. Dare I say even more so. Then I must be more disciplined. My emotionally constrained. Stronger. Until I can strike and win.
A battle is won or lost before it is ever fought.
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